Do girls like.... do they really just wanna have fun?

I mean i would have said yes, yesterday about an hour and a half before i had to be at work when i decided indefinitely that sex was more important to me than being on time or following the dress code was. I would have said YES, Girls do just wanna have fun. And since the sex.. ya know.. didn't suck... i was in a good mood when i got to work. It helped also that my manager had zero complaint that i was late and even complimented my outfit. I left work in a good mood and then called Brook back who was at the O.C. and invited me to stop in. Again, yes... girls do just wanna have fun... i wanted to go see my bestest at the bar and have a drink and get some grub.... nothing wrong with that..
I was a little weary about walking into this particular establishment... i hadn't been there in about 2 months..... When John and i broke up it was my bar of choice to slam back one too many.. and lets just say the night didn't end well and i was sure that nobody had forgotten about it....
Once i was inside though it didn't matter, Brook and i were catching up chatting away and laughing like the usual sitch. I was flying high from my all around wonderful day and when i made eye contact with the man sitting next to me i said "hi" with a smile on my face. This isn't usually the case though folks, i have a reputation for dirty looks, scooting my chair away or even telling the guy to keep his distance. I don't know what was different about me... or about this guy.... maybe the fact that he didn't come off as a total creeper ass, and probably the fact that my most sarcastic friend was sitting on the opposite side of me and would have my back... how did she put it... that right like a bra strap.
For the sake of the block random man will be called JD for Jack Daniels, which was his drink of choice. Conversation was taking place and for once i was actually on top of it.... i had the funny comments and the cute giggle... and Brook she was on top of it with her witty comments and sexual innuendos.... but the most surprising is that Mr. JD himself was actually quite on top of it as well. He had preeettty good come backs for having Brook and I on the opposing team. I mean its not very often that we think about bringing random out of towner men from a public establishment into one of OUR bars.... but we did.... that's right we thought about it.... didn't take him but we did ponder about it for a few seconds. Then we rolled out.

Now what hits me on the way to our beachy bar? I have no clue! I mean one minute I'm having a blasty blast with my besty and boy.. and the next I'm at the reg spot with a full beer in front of me that i want nothing to do with it. I mean there is something wrong when there is a full and alcoholic beverage in front of me, and i don't have to drive home, and i don't even have a sip. Even something worse wrong when our bartender pal hands out free shots..... and i raise my glass for a cheers and give the shot to Brook.

Alcohol is one thing I'm typically not too fond of sharing and I'm definitely not too fond of wasting... so what happened!?!

I mean i definitely was tired.... my bed definitely did sound appetizing and to get to that i couldn't have a drink of beer.... the girlsies convo had simmered and most of us were watching the tele.... and in short conversation with the bar people i had realized that beachy bar was never a positive place for me.... I started going there to see a guy who wasn't a good guy, i kept going there after we 'decided to be friends' to prove a point (in true "the girls" fashion), i quit going there because all i ended up doing was getting hammered between the bartenders generous servings and the ones they just handed out in general. Yeah that place was hard to go back too... but more so hard to be sober and upbeat inside of ... but hindsight is 20/20 right? Bummer is its actually a pretty perfalicious place to hang out.

Anyway i'm not sure why i didn't just wanna have fun but i didn't, i didn't have the desire to even try to. I mean it felt good to not want to drink or have to drink and to have the self control not to drink even though i knew that i could have that option. That felt good, and it felt like proving a lot of people wrong when i walked out the doors... it felt good to have the bestest in full support too. I dunno if it is because i had court that day, or because i was tired, or because friend 3 was there..... i dunno if it was because i was thinking about a man.. the to be or not to be man, ft collins... (yes about him... dammit... i mean i didn't wanna be thinking about him.... i don't wanna like him too much, i don't wanna want to be in a relationship... i don't wanna miss him when he is not around... so I'm really and honestly hoping that he is not the reason... because guy or not i still just wanna have fun... i HOPE) I just don't know what it was!

Don't worry though people, i mean just wanting to have fun Andi will return, and there will be another night where she SAFELY doesn't waste any alcohol, and CLEVERLY keeps the conversation going and just SIMPLY really does just wanna have fun!